the 9th day of Chinese New Year. it's just passing too soon. time really flies. getting older, getting more mature. start thinking like an adult and trying to act as an adult as well. start feeling coward to face naked truths in this real life. i dont wish to grow up anyhow, seriously.
met up with old friends, a lot. sorry i cant recognise some of you huh. er, i dont look like a kid ah. people changing and growing. gone through different lifestyles, gaining different experiences, coming from different parts on the earth, but after years, i feel grateful we can sit together and talk talk talk. hopefully the next one wont be another nine years from now. it's fun listening to our old stories again and again. reminding, recalling. funny nicknames and little couples.
friends are graduating soon. some feeling bored of study, some feeling scare to make the first step into this competitive world. i have 2 more years to go. people asking what else i can do besides being an actuary. i said nothing. ya, nothing means speechless. people study hard in school, work hard in office. life is just hard, hard and hard. actuarial inclined friends who failed professional paper, even once, usually start hesitating. am i suitable? am i capable? am i in the wrong path? should i just quit? ya, i WAS and i am one of these kiasi kiasu money slaves. eventually, when you finally passed it regardless upon your brilliance or diligence, do you think you are good though? it's another issue. well-equipped is just enough for me. there are lots to be learnt.
relax dudes. the world outside is beautiful. after reading this, take a deep breath.
think. the purpose of your life.
be a boo or a bull?
